I have learned.
Perhaps I should say I have realized. The pitfalls of the world have never escaped me, but when you are determined to live by faith then you see them differently. So, perhaps I should acknowledge my naiveté in thinking that those things would not touch me. I do not apologize for that however, because for a long time I have not been touched. Should I simply cower now that I am faced with negative circumstances?
Here and now I struggle with myself. I waffle between who I know I am and what others perceive me to be. I resist the misery of “until” because I have chosen that pathway for too long. Consider:
“Just do this until something better comes…”
they say that again and again
“just UNTIL”
but until never comes so you simply live a lifelong existence of less.
Until is a figment of the imagination
Until is a word designed to give you hope but failing to deliver
Until is a dangling carrot, but I don’t know who is holding the string.
For me, there is just now.
if you select misery now, then you live with misery.
if you select that, then you must own it.
How can you build something good from something awful?
Would you build a house from weak wood? The termites have had their way, yet you would build with what they left behind?
that house would not stand.
None would say, “just build what you can until you get a better one.”
Until they are asked to help, and then until is good enough for you.
No one cares about your until moment. Most are too busy waiting on their own. Does that mean you should stop believing that something good can happen to you? Can you actually think big? It only takes a few to recognize your potential. If you believe you can be or do something, then you have to move toward that. You lack faith if you don’t. If people tell you that you are not good enough, keep moving. If people tell you that you want too much, keep moving. If no one like you has ever done that type of thing before, keep moving. If others do not believe in you then that is their right, but let them know that they should not be upset if you do not agree.